Everyone Has One

I came across this website that is called HateOnBeyonce.com. It is so funny because the person actually writes things that they believe show her as a fake and phony person. What amazes me is that someone is actually that much of a negative person that they would dedicate their blog to hating on anyone. I read it because it is funny. I actually love a person, especially a woman and a minority at that who knows the business, has people around her who know how to conduct business and who is successful. Her and her husband are ranked as the number one power couple by Forbes magazine. Will Smith and Jada Pinkett are number 2. That is amazing to me that the top two power couples are black. That means that minorities are learning more about the business side than just the entertainment side with their endorsement deals and production companies, music labels, etc. But like they say, everyone has an opinion. I believe in speaking our minds, but actually hating someone on a regularly basis, even if the hate is legitimate, is ridiculous. If you don't like someone, fine, but think about the benefit of having previously overlooked people and see the benefit of it for everyone. Anyhoo, I am happy for everyone who aims for success and achieves it in their venue.

In A Dry Place

I am in a dry place right now just wanting things to change but not knowing which way I need to go. Normally I am a very detailed person in regards to planning things that I want to do. But for some reason I feel as if I am in a place where whether I plan or not, it is just time for me to walk through a place like the children of Israel did when they were brought out of the Egypt. But I am trying to hold on to my faith and not be unbelieving because I really don't want to walk around the same place or in a circle for 40 years or longer than I am supposed to. Sometimes it gets hard because I am dealing with one terminal illness and a chronic one that begs me to just lean on the Lord and think about Job. Being in this wilderness place sometimes makes me sad because I think about all the time I have wasted doing things that were not necessary or for the best. But like the saying goes, I may not be where I want to be, I sure am not where I used to be. Can I get Amen?!!!

Truly Inspirational

Well hello: I am still not getting used to having a black President in the White House. It is funny how people make jokes though about certain things that were dominated by white people but now have black people involved in them. For example, I heard someone talk about that is why they call the white house the white house: it is for white people and not black. And someone else made the joke about does it mean that now they need to change the name to the black house. Too funny. And remember when Tiger Woods won the Masters in Golf. Someone joked that it was called the Masters because black people were not supposed to be in it, much less win it. But needless to say, I am just very excited about the changing times of America and the acceptance of this much needed act to happen.

I was also viewing a video about some blood gang members who were saying that this is what a black man is supposed to do: get themselves up and bring up the others. Show them how to get out of their foolishness and do what is good. They were referring also to how Jim Jones and Lil Wayne were now repping that they were gang members. They were perplexed as they did not understand how you could do that when you have made a name for yourself doing something that should teach young people to at least give themselves a chance to make it. Anyhoo, to each his own. But I agree with the bangers. Don't do good or become successful and then want to be gangsta. Amazing how it appears that a successful black man can't own up to his success without wanting to do something negative to make a name for themselves as if being famous for rapping isn't enough. Sad, but true.

YES WE CAN!!!

YES WE CAN AND YES WE DID!! I am so excited about the election. We did not just elect a black man, we elected a qualified man who ran for all people. I give so much props to the young people for seeing beyond what the media was trying to play out: race. People who want change saw a competent man who loves his family and had no scandal to exploit. This is a historic day in all parts of the world. Now everyone knows that America is the greatest country in the world. I like the fact that now we can kick can't out of the vocabulary and say yes we can. Now we have a leader who is a motivator and an encourager who will impact society to be their best and to make a difference in their community. It starts locally and internally. YES WE CAN!!!!

Hey There Again. It is almost the end of the month and I am happy that the old year is getting on. But one of my favorite entertainers had a bad situation come up when it was reported that her mother and brother were killed and her nephew was kidnapped. It was all because of a domestic violence situation. Domestic Violence affects everyone because it gives rise to the acceptance of violence in the home. It destroys kids, the adults and causes all types of unforseeable problems that will occur later in life. I remember when it was reported that OJ killed Nicole Simpson and I knew it could be true because a man who will beat a woman will kill her. And I know that men aren't the only abusers, because women can be just as violent to their male counterparts. But violenc by any definition is wrong. I say that we need to stop the violence and get help because it only gets worse in the end.

Work It Out!!!

Hey There. Once again I am here talking trash about something. Thank God for an outlet because I know when I need to vent, I gotta vent. Today I am venting about something great though. I was listening to a song by Mary J. Blige. I don't know the title of it, but it goes something like "work your thing out' where she is talking about people discriminated against because of their dark skin. But I apply this to other areas because in all we do, we need to work our situation out. I am trying to apply this to many areas of my life including my relationship with Jesus and Christianity, my weight, my level of commitment and dedication to everything, especially my attitude. Sometimes when I feel like people don't do what I want when I want it, I get so upset and lose it and start threatening them. Iknow this is wrong, but it feels good at the time that I do it. I went to the doctor yesterday and it was very tiresome and I felt bad because I had a hard time walking and sitting still too long. I know I gotta do something about my weight. I am working on it. I will just do like Mary says and work this thing out. I am 42 years old and I know time is not on my side because i am no longer a spring chicken. But anyhoo, have a great day today and live as if it is your last day. Surabi

Reality Bites

Sometimes reality bites when we exactly realize what is going on. I read an e-mail that stated that our sweet Govenor Charlie Crist has signed into law that if a person comes to vote, they must have the same address on their voter's registration as they do their ID card. This is so sad because what does it matter what address is on the card, it only matters what address is on the voter ID. It is apparent that the Republicans are desperate and they are doing anything to keep Obama out of office. But you know what I think, it does not matter what someone does or does not do, if God wants someone in office, he will make sure they get their by getting the job done through the people he chooses to use.

I know that we still have to do our part because we are part of the process of getting the job done, but I believe as well that what God wants he will get. I am still going to contact the people I think need to know to get the word out so that people can make sure they have their thing together come November. I cannot believe that we will have to endure another four years of the same foolishness by a bunch of fools who don't understand that they cannot lead anyone much less make an impact in this country for the positive. Anyhoo, keep a prayer going on. It is getting gully out here. Surabi

Sign of the TImes

What makes people feel that they can take what belongs to someone else just because they feel that got a bad deal in life. I am beginning to not feel sorry for people who are locked up for years upon years. When you see what people do to one another, you realize that this world is coming to an end real soon and that we cannot expect anything better. I know that individual changes will always take place, but as a society, we need sweeping changes. Sometimes I wonder why we have an earth, but I realized that when we create things, we have to take into account that everything may not go according to plan. Even if we are the one in charge, we still have to learn and change as we go along. A lot of times when things happen, people wonder where God is or if God is so loving why would he allow certain things to happen? Well, I say to these people, get a life because you could care less about God. THe only time people even want God is if they want something..But when everything is going ok for them, God is not even in the picture. THe reason things happen is because of choice. When people choice to do something, it takes God out of picture and puts them in control. Choice is a gift from God. But we must be careful about what we choose to do and be willing to pay the price for it. Anyhoo, keep your chin up no matter what is going on because you are here for a reason and even if someone takes something that is not theirs, thank God because it could have been worse. Keep a smile going on. Surabi

technology has it's problems too

As with all things, technology has it's problems. I got a virus on my computer that basically took over the whole computer and made me so angry. Needless to say, I ended up calling Hewlett Packard/Compaq to find out what to do, only to learn that I had to get a warranty for $114.00 to even ask them what to do. It is for one year, so that is cool. But after asking the questions and the technician not being able to help me, they told me to sign up for their program, tune-up. That costs $59.00. Then they directed me to do a system recovery. I did it and lost all of my material that I needed including my Microsoft program for word. I did not renew my contract when it expired from my 60 day free offer. Anyhoo, I had to do at least two system recoveries and then add back on all of the programs like my printer, the external disk holder and other necessities. It amazed me that we have to spend so much money on virus blockers, spam blockers, etc. only to have an advanced hacker break through anyway and do what they want. Well, I say that everything has it's problems. COmputers may be great, but they come with a whole set of problems that costs more than we could have imagined. Well, I guess there is a price to pay for everything, so why not get what you want. Talk to you next time. SMOOCHES. Surabi

NEW THINGS

I was watching a show yesterday or should I say early this morning called My Sweet 16 on MTV. It is about kids who celebrate their 16th birthday with a big bash. Needless to say, I was amazed at how our young people are more concerned with who has the most or the best as opposed to their plans for the future. I am not knocking having a good time and going into your new found age with a good time, but one of the shows focused on two friends who went to the same school and had their 16th birthdays coming up right behind each other. The first girl made it a necessity to outdo the other girl by having a grand party and an even grander gift from her parents. She got a Lexus for her 16th B-Day. Well when the other friend did her birthday party her parents go Fat Joe and DJ Khaled to do the music for her party. Plus she got a Mercedes from her parents. You should have seen the face on the first girl. If looks could kill everyone would have been dead including me and my daughter who were looking at it after the fact.

Another point is that I was talking to my friend and she was saying how some of the young people she knew wanted to go to school, but forgo the traditional schools like FIU or Miami Dade or even UM. They wanted to go to the Technical schools which promise a faster way to get the degree you want. She tried to explain to them that it would be best to go the traditional route as the other schools are mainly private and costs a lot of money. This means that the schooling will be covered by loans. And if you can get a degree in 6 months, that usually takes two years then I need to sell you the fountain of youth because you are being bamboozled. Something is not right. The point I am trying to make is that it appears to her and myself that the kids just want to show off and let everyone see how fast they got what they wanted. This world is really changing because the focus is not on building up character and hard-work, but get rich quick schemes and show and tell.

And to not get off the subject completely, have you noticed those makeover shows like on Maury Povich. Have you noticed that they only focus on the outside and very rarely say what is going on in their minds or their life. It is a case of Show and Sell. Show myself and what I have in the physical to sell you something that will not give you a good understanding of who I am and what I have to offer. Anyhoo, I was just wondering what your feelings are on the SHow and Sell and off of the building of a great character? Surabi

Appreciation

It is amazing how when you have a service that you need to cancel, the people treat you so nice because they don't want to lose you as a customer. I actually like the service but due to financial reasons, I need to start cutting back. And plus I was wasting services because three of the services I used are free. But needless to say, I am not complaining because it is nothing wrong with showing your appreciation to your customers. I wish more companies were like this. In this time of unemployment and mortgage crisis among our losses, it is time to cut costs and do the best we can until God works it out for your better. The service I am talking about is MSN9 internet service. I already have comcast because of their cable and their bundle services. Anyhoo, what services or experiences do you have with cancelling services, why and what was their response to you? Let us know. Surabi

What Would You Do?

I watched a program that brought the perpetrators of crimes together with the victim or the victim's family of the said crime. I always wondered what would I do if that happened to me. How would I react seeing someone who hurt my loved one or friend and cost them greatly? I watched an episode of Oprah yesterday and they had three families on their who were the family members of a victim of death by either murder or accident. On the first part, the victims were under 18 and one was killed with a baseball bat after he taunted and bullied a younger boy who was 100 pounds lighter than himself and 6 inches shorter. It was sad because one boy is gone and the other one is in juvenile detention for 12 years. In the other story, a young man drag racing killed a mother and her young daughter. And the last one was an accident by children playing a game. Needless to say, the perpetrators or their families got to hear each others story. I can't say I would have reacted as well as they did because I can't imagine the hurt and pain I would feel to know that my loved one is gone and the one who caused their death is alive. But if it was my loved one who was the perpetrator, then I really don't know how I would react because I wouldn't know how to approach the victims family. Well, what do you think you do if you were in either position?

keep grinding

My nephews have a saying that no matter what, you have to keep grinding. Basically that means to keep on doing what you need to do to get where you need to get to. It is not easy to do something when things just are not working out. It seems the best laid plans can go awry and stick you with a choke hold like you have never seen before. But I say let's just keep on keeping on. I was looking for something to work out at a certain time, but amazingly when it did not work out, every other plan was thrown under the bus. But like my nephews say, keep grinding. I gotta keep on doing what I need to do. Until I talk to you again, I say to you keep on grinding and you will get where you want to be. Surabi

feeling used and stupid

Do you ever feel used and stupid? Sometimes it feels that it is better to just leave and go somewhere where you don't know anyone and let people fend for themselves. I feel used and stupid based on the fact that someone does not want to suffer a little bit and get themselves together and take care of themselves. They want to do it the easy way and put pressure on other people who can't handle it. Why do people think that other people have it so much better than they do? It amazes me that people actually believe that. Or maybe it is because they are doing what they want and could care less about what you are dealing with. It really hurts to feel that no one really cares for you and that they only want something to do with you when you have something to do for them. Deep down this is what I feel because when I go through things, there is no one but God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and if you think that that is all anyone needs, I got a newsflash for you, YOU ARE WRONG AND EVEN MORE STUPID THAN ME. If that were so God would not make a whole bunch of people to live on this earth together. He would have let it with just him. So anyhoo! I am not looking for sympathy, just asking a question. I guess it will always work out in the end. I understand when people want to kill themselves. I don't see how anyone can talk them out of it because with the way things are in this world, it is not going to get any better. And please don't insult my intelligence with if you commit suicide, you will go to hell. Giving that ignorant answer will do about the same. Needless to say, if you have not died or known someone who has and went to hell from suicide, then remain quiet. Tell Jesus. He understands. Well, dont' mention what you have been taught because Hitler taught his followers that blacks and Jews were the lowest form of life and the most ignorant and that the world was better off without them. So we can't go by what someone else says unless we subscribe to everything they said. Well I gotta go because I have to prepare my mind for this school work. Hope to hear from you soon. Surabi

Fantasy

What type of things do you fantasize about? I have always had a wild imagination, which has helped me to deal with a lot of things in life that were too traumatic for me to confront off the bat. But what I fantasize about most is being another person. People say that maybe if you are not satisfied about yourself you want to be someone else. BUt I don't want to be someone else or another person,per se, because I fantasize about me being the greatest me or a different me, but still the core me. Without all of the limitations that I face in life, I create my own in my world. Sometimes it helps me to get through a day that seems frustrating and disruptive. I am the first to admit that sometimes I check out of this life and dream about my own dreams. Of course I have to bring myself back to deal with life, but sometimes I am a different me and I love it.

I began doing this as a young girl who experienced sexual and physical abuse and an unhappy childhood full of domestic violence and forced trips to a church that is now considered harsh. Although I did love to learn about Jesus, as I feel that it is the best gift that any parent can give their child or children, I felt that it was forced upon us instead of introduced to us and learning how to appreciate it. THrough the experiences of my life, the drug addictions,teen pregnancies,domestic violence, arrests, etc., I have managed to live through them with the help of Jesus, but with my imagination as well.

I bet you are wondering what type of things a child can imagine, especially when I was 5 years old when I started. Because of the teachings that I heard about with Jesus, I used to take my dolls out to the back yard and speak life to them, as if they would come alive. But I believe it based on what I was taught. This is why now I believe that I can believe God for anything because faith is like that. But my childlike faith has helped me now to have the gift of faith. Anywho, I used to pretend that I was in the Mickey Mouse Club. I put on my sheet hair (my play play hair because I was little low on the hair) and dance and sing till I was tired. I know you are wondering how could I have been gone that long and no one noticed me? Well, we grew up in a emotionless family basically and it was 6 of us, so I was the one no one noticed. The forgotten one. But that is ok because although it helped me to deal with being alone, I was a little distant from many things and people in my life who I wish I could have spent more time with before.

Needless to say, what are your thoughts on your fantasies and dreams and hopes and how do you deal with life sometimes.

Never Gone Change

I am amazed that we still have issues with racism in America and anywhere. I still can't believe that people waste their time with such simple things as I don't like you because of the color of your skin, where you live, your educational background, and what your religious or sexual preference is. Why oh Why do we aggravate ourselves with such ignorance? And where oh where did our little brain go? Needless to say, with layoffs on the jobs, children, men and women being abused, people running scams and schemes, people dying left and right, families being broken up and the constant threat of terrorism and lying politicians and pedophiles, why oh why do we waste valuable time and energy with things that don't matter a bit. I personally don't give a hoot about negative people, but we need to pray because this ish gotta stop. Until next time, get a life and keep it with something that is more fulfilling like living life like it is your last day on earth. Or should I say the best you can because if I knew it was my last day on earth, I would eat as much chinese food and pizza hut I could and run around in my birthday suit telling people to kiss it. (LOL) Just kidding on the naked part. Let me get going because it is late at night and I just finished a report for my Ph.D. on Minority and National Trends. The basic discussion was on the racial disparities of blacks and Latinos in the criminal justice area called corrections.

Now I am not going to start trouble, but it amazes me that with blacks and Latinos making up a little more than whites on the overall population of the United States, blacks and Latinos lead the AIDS/HIV infections, poverty, lack of education, disadvantaged living, teen pregnancy, single female households, etc., etc., etc., blah, blah, blah and all of that. Somebody is lying and they need to sit down with that load of poppy cock. This is why racism and institutionalized racism will never stop because even our researchers are lying. How could the minorities make up all of the negative stereotypes except being on welfare, but are less than the the total population put together. Now this ish has got to stop before I go postal on somebody. Just kidding about the postal part. Perhaps. But I did go postal on a few polic officers one time or two. I could not take it. You see one time I was riding down the street with some family members after a book publishing opening and I took off my wig so I looked like a fat black man. The police pulled me over and before I got out, I prayed to Jesus so that I would not go nuts and get hauled into jail or dead through justifiable homicide, the police officers favorite method of killing the innocent. Needless to say, I read him and the other officers the riot act about being racist, even though one of them was black. But I had gift for him too; I told him he was not black, he was a cop. That mystified him. He shut up and they all left after they wrote me a ticket for having one window tinted too dark. Before yall go thinking that I am a racist, I hate to say this because it has been labeled a racist statement, but one of best friends is a white police officer. She is a wonderful friend I might add. ? But this amazing racist bull and institutionalized racism needs Jesus and the Holy Spirit before someone goes postal. Well, anyhoo, I need to go and get some rest because i got some little bay bays here for the summer. Kudos and Adios. I'll Be Back!!!

What Are Your Thoughts About the Presidential Race?

My ideas about the Presidential Race is that I was at first excited about Barack Obama being the President. But now I think he is the typical politician. He denounces things that he thinks people will not condone or understand. He is a butt kisser and it does not matter who is the president, both of them, McCain and Obama are lame to me. Anything is better than President Bush is what I believe America is saying. Barack is no better than Hilary. He is the flake just from a different brand. Just my opinion. If truth be told, he is getting ridiculous addressing every negative thing said about him. First it was his Pastor, who mind you gave him spiritual guidance for years, then it was the different postings made about him, now it is Bernie Mac's jokes and the The New Yorker publication.
Give it a rest Barack. You are just a whiny baby who cries about everything instead of taking the high road and shutting up and keep minding the store you are trying to build in the American Presidency legacy. Just thinking. Surabi

welcome

Hi: Just wanted to drop a line to say hello to everyone. I am so excited about having a place to share my thoughts and express myself. I will drop by tomorrow and let you all in on what I am thinking. Until then, kudos to you for checking out this blog.