Hey There. Once again I am here talking trash about something. Thank God for an outlet because I know when I need to vent, I gotta vent. Today I am venting about something great though. I was listening to a song by Mary J. Blige. I don't know the title of it, but it goes something like "work your thing out' where she is talking about people discriminated against because of their dark skin. But I apply this to other areas because in all we do, we need to work our situation out. I am trying to apply this to many areas of my life including my relationship with Jesus and Christianity, my weight, my level of commitment and dedication to everything, especially my attitude. Sometimes when I feel like people don't do what I want when I want it, I get so upset and lose it and start threatening them. Iknow this is wrong, but it feels good at the time that I do it. I went to the doctor yesterday and it was very tiresome and I felt bad because I had a hard time walking and sitting still too long. I know I gotta do something about my weight. I am working on it. I will just do like Mary says and work this thing out. I am 42 years old and I know time is not on my side because i am no longer a spring chicken. But anyhoo, have a great day today and live as if it is your last day. Surabi